genessiacrackers | IC CR Meme

Where do I even begin? You can't stand yourself, and yet you've got an ego bigger than the inside of your Tardis. You've got a relatively unstable set of emotions that range from angry, to depressed, to arrogant know it all, with just a few shades in between. You drink even when you know it's not good for you, and when you do you tend to say things to Rose that you don't mean. You expect Rose to be faithful to just this incarnation of you, when your previous incarnation had literally died for her, and then you get jealous when your other incarnations come along and they still love her. Meanwhile you were with Jack and Martha when I first started trying to wrestle with the mess that is your relationship. Even though you two have things sorted out now, I still get irked whenever I think about you.

That enough reasons for why you irritate me or shall I keep going? It's not exactly polite to bad mouth your friend's boyfriends behind their back, but you did ask.

[Here is ice cold emotion]

And you've only heard one side of the story.

[Yeah... ice cold? That's sort of a shade of all three of those emotions she listed there.]

I've also heard it from a few other sources, but it's hard to hear your side of the story when we never seem to sit and chat long enough for you to tell me your side. Look... I do know a lot of what you've been through, I just don't think you always handle it the most maturely. The majority of the times we've met you haven't exactly made the best of impressions for someone who is thousands of years old.

Still not from me. This face. Just because the other me's were me, thar not me entirely. Thar at a different junction in thar life with whatever has gone on since and changed thar perspective of the past.

And why would I go to a stranger and bleed my hearts out about my problems?

And whatever Rose told you about me it's from her perspective of me. A human perspective at that. Where she doesn't understand blasting walls though dimensions is something you shouldn't ever do.

Edited 2018-11-17 05:45 (UTC)

There you go with that arrogance again.

Let me try to explain it a bit better, shall I?

Why you ask?

Okay, first of all I'm the best friend of the woman you love not to mention one of your other friend's employers and friend, and I'm not quite as much of a stranger to the other incarnations of yourself. Now I understand you're not all identical, each of you has your own personality and way of dealing with things, but you still have many of the same memories, experiences, and you still loved and befriended many of the same people. You carry the same principles, and you all seem to be quite full of yourselves.

Now you have some good reason to be, as you're incredibly clever to the point where you feel like you have to use baby talk to communicate with us at times. However, you seem to forget that for however short one's lifespan may be, that doesn't mean that you should brush people off simply for having inferior intellect. You can still learn something of value about yourself and others from even the most simple of conversations, and I think you of all people should know this.

The fact that you use human as practically a derogatory term, and look down on Rose for things she'd done in pure desperation because the multiverse was collapsing around her and she wanted to try to save you... is disgusting. No, she didn't try to make excuses for what she did, she was filled with guilt and remorse for what she'd done, I am the one who told her she shouldn't be so hard on herself when she tried to do the best she could with the options she had. Tell me, what would you have done instead? No... forget it, that's not even important here. Rose has said nothing but good things about you for nearly an entire year, it's my conclusions from the facts I've been given that make me dislike you. Now you're welcome to explain your side of the story, but you haven't been very good at respecting me or Rose whenever we speak.

I simply haven't found much about you that I find to be likable as of yet, do you comprehend or should I add in some more scientific words to make it easier for a genius like you to understand?

Edited 2018-11-17 06:17 (UTC)

How can I respect you when you never gave me a chance and took Rose's side right away? Without ever coming to me or asking me my side? This entire thing was centered around this face and Rose. And you never asked to see me or seek me out proper to get to know me before forming an option of half facts.

Meanwhile, I'm getting dragged through the mud for an entire year because of someone I chose to die for in my former life and chose a form, a personality to love her as much as possible to be as human as Time Lord can get -

[A deep breath]

Different time points here. I lost her and didn't think I'd leave her again I found her again. Yes, I was wrong on that - which is why she spent a year trying to not love me because of that - I can't say what I was going to do was right -

[Softer]

I did what I did because I'd thought she'd be happy.

But if were to ask me before I returned back to our universe - that's not something I could have saw myself doing then with if I ever found her again.

And I can only count the few times over the past year I did smile or laugh and mean it.

We use to do that all the time.

You're not the only who doesn't like what they've become and want to get out of.

You see Doctor? That's another problem I have with you. You assume that I should want to like you, but really? I don't care that I don't like you, and I never have. If it bothered me so much, I would have sought you out and talked to you about all this to get your side of the story. If you don't want me to dislike you, you have to sit down and talk to me, it's not my job to seek you out just to get your side of the story.

You're also saying that I, like you, don't like what I've become and want to get out of it. Contrary to what you may think, I like how I am, who I am, and I actually love this place and most of the people here. I fell in love here, I've met people from all over time and space here that I never could have otherwise, and one of the people I cherish most is alive here. If I wasn't the woman I am now I never would have been able to swallow my own pride to do half the things I can do now. If I hadn't suffered and struggled as much as I did in the past, I wouldn't be half as strong as I am now. You won't be able to live your life fully and happily until you can learn to love yourself again, and that seems to be something your still incapable of.

For all your vaunted knowledge your knowledge of human sociology is incredibly lacking! How many lives have you lived beside humans now? How many years does it take for a time lord to learn to be human? I'm not even trying to tackle the problems the two of you have had in the past, I'm not even trying to really tackle any of your relationship problems anymore since I told Rose they were probably a bit out of my league. However, just based upon what I've seen of you and Rose in your time here, in Genessia? I still don't like you. There isn't a side to tell, it's simply observations I've been making and you're welcome to tell me your perspective and I'll try to be as open minded as I can, but that still might not change whether or not I like you.

Edited 2018-11-17 06:45 (UTC)

Honestly both of you shut uppity up. What is the point of any of this? Let's just hate each other and be done with it without having to be right.

Something we agree on? Is this a paradox?

[Yeah... maybe attempting a space/time joke wasn't the best ice breaker she'd ever had.]

More like a hybrid. [wiggles fingers]

Isn't that what all compromises are?

A hybrid?

[Wasn't a hybrid a fusion of two things? What exactly did it mean in this context?]

I think it probably only applies to a compromise between two completely opposite entities.

[Wait... is she killing the joke? This is not her specialty here.]

Aren't we two completely... three completely...

How do you get on with the Great Gonzo.

Look, math aside, just go with it. Stop trying to pick it apart and accept it of the mystery that ends in not arguing in pointless circles for hours on end.

By the way did you wax your eyebrows because they are looking practically nonexistent today. I believe that's what's known as on fleek.

[Okay, he managed to get a bit of a laugh out of her here.]

Why, do you think it's a good look for me? To answer your question though, no I didn't do anything with my eyebrows.

No idea, but it made you smile, didn't it.

That automatically means I win.

[but he says it pleasantly enough as he throws up some duces at the camera]

Peace out.

[Again, Mirajane can't help but laugh because it's just... it's so ridiculous but not in a way that frustrates her to no end. Does that mean he got her to like him a little bit? Maybe, maybe that's why its his win since he probably still dislikes her just as much as he did before. Oh well.]

Good game doctor.

[Because clearly that's what you should tell someone who just won with so much class.]

If Rose is part of the Fairy Guild - we don't have a choice in the matter in trying to be reasonable with each other.

I didn't this place was all that bad before all of this happened.

But I don't see the point in talking if you're just going to be angry with everything I say.

Edited 2018-11-17 06:55 (UTC)

[Double face palm]

Ugh...

I never said I wouldn't try to be reasonable with you, I never said I would treat you super unfairly, and I've never said I'd always dislike you. I just don't like you! Do you know how long I hated Erza? The woman who I love most in my life right now?

[Just... shaking her head.]

I'm frustrated because what you're saying feels like it doesn't have much relevance to the grand scheme of things here. Yes you left Rose behind in another dimension, but I don't really hold that against you!

How long?

And you don't understand how me and Rose before she was left behind and when she was and how that all fits into this entire big ball of messy mess of the thing that happened.

Me and her have resolved things about then and how we're going to move forward here.

And I don't know how I'm going to be the loving Doctor that I once was again, here.

[Which she may see that scares him; that maybe he permanently lost a part of himself]

Seven years.

[Ouch... there's sad eyes again. She's just going to try to reach a hand out to his shoulder to give him some sort of comfort, though he's welcome to back away, or stop her if it made him too uncomfortable.]

Look... I know it's going to be hard... for both of us... but like I said, one of the first steps I think is learning to love yourself again. Apologizing, atoning, and forgiving yourself for your past mistakes, and trying to be the person you want to be. It's not something that will come to you overnight, but if you do work at it you can be the kind of person you want to be. You might never be the person you once were, but that doesn't mean you can't become something better.

If you're trying to improve yourself, and you work at it, and you're doing it not just for Rose but also for yourself? I probably will start liking you a lot more. Just... don't give up on always trying to do better, okay?

[He doesn't cry; and his eyes aren't as sad as they were before; yet they seem to run deeper in the center and sadder around the icy rims of his eyes. Like having two hard hearts with warm openings here and there.

Ten won't flinch the offered comfort but it also doesn't do anything since he can't feel any warmth from it]

I appreciate the gesture but I can't feel that if don't care.

Yeah- I'd like to love myself again. Miss that. Loved myself so much I came back twice with the same face.

Yeah, that's the problem isn't?

I - well - I really don't know how to forgive myself.

Yeah - but I really liked who I was. Least when I was happy. I knew how to have fun. I was the life of the party The one with the lamp shade or tie on thar head and a banana... I use to love parties so much. Enjoy life. See a simple daisy for the most magnificent thing.

And just do - silly random things with her.

Edited 2018-11-17 07:43 (UTC)

I'm sorry to hear that...

[He's so shut off, she's not even sure how much she can really reach him, but it seems as though he's at least considering what she's telling him.]

I know you hate to talk to most of them, but your future selves may have some of the answers you're looking for. Talk to others about things you've done so you can access just how unforgivable you really are, and ask yourself again... how can I forgive myself?

[A deep sigh and a somewhat defeated look]

I don't hate myselves. Myselves helped me patch things up with Rose. Myselves have helped enough.

And - it would open their wounds talking to myselves about these things.

[A small head nod and then looks at Mirajane]

Believe me. I'm done being a mess.

[A deep inhale]

I shouldn't have gone back. But too late for that. If I hadn't I wouldn't have ever understood Rose's perspective of having left her.

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